moving on....

was home again for the Easter...man,i had waited for this mini holiday for the longest time. i have been working like a dog..so any chance that i get to get away..sounds like a gift from God. even more interesting was the fact that my whole family was there, with me. needless to say i enjoyed in immensely.
more so because i had the weirdest conversations with my dad...weird but very interesting. my dad thinks i should get back into the dating pool. whoah, i know!!!!!i was just as surprised. dads never tell that to their daughters, they like to keep them close and be overprotective.
not to say that he doesn't love me or care about me. it was because he loves me so much, he would want to see me finally happy. the last couple of years have been extremely hard and i think it killed my father watching me suffer as i did. so any chance of him seeing me smile, excited and giggling would be a huge relief to him.
so am i jumping back into the dating pool?..hell yeah!!!time i got my groove back Lord knows i had lost it for the longest time. and i think i sighted someone already. just the way i really like them...shhhhh don't tell him though, it might go into his head.
am i scared? very...its the scariest thing i have thought of doing in a long while.bearing your heart like that, opening your self to the possibility of pain and heartache is scary for anyone. but isn't that what life is all about?we are told we only have today, tomorrow is not promised to anyone, the people closest to us can hurt us the most; that is the irony of life. so we either choose to live afraid or courageously. i choose to be brave. i have only one life to live. it might work out or it might not. i do not know. but i choose to be happy and today i am happy, that is all that matters. tomorrow will take care of itself.